If I had the mother I lost long ago

When celebrations like Mother's Day collide with the loss of a loved one, sometimes reflection is good for the soul. Happy Mother's Day. http://diaryofadomesticdiva.com

If I had the mother I lost long ago If I had the mother I lost long ago for whom my heart aches every day, would I still be the mother I myself am had she been here to show me the way? If I had the power to change… Continue reading

Thoughts on November 1st, Patron Saints and the Day My Mother Died

After the death of a loved one, thoughts and emotions are a jumble, sometimes for years afterwards. It's a struggle. This year felt different for me: no less sad, but a little more reflective. http://diaryofadomesticdiva.com

Now, I’m not saying my mom was saintly. Or even that she was perfect — though, when we lose someone we love, we tend to paint them in a perfect light. Continue reading

Cheers, Mom! It’s Your Birthday. 

   I’m feeling like my mom deserves a happy birthday wish. She would have been 67.  She appreciated every year and celebrated her birthdays with relish. Her last birthday on this earth was her 50th and it was wonderful. Certainly, it was one of her most meaningful birthdays and I… Continue reading

A Lifetime of Mother’s Day Memories in Crayon

I suppose that, though she left us many years too soon, you could say she accomplished much. She taught us manners and grace; thankfulness and humility. She demonstrated selflessness and love, humour and wit, strength, acceptance and kindness. She left a legacy. One I hope I can live up to. Continue reading

“Mommy, I don’t want you to die.”

How do you reassure your child whose deepest fear is losing you? With love, patience and understanding. http://diaryofadomesticdiva.com

This child. My vivacious, rambunctious, adventurous boy is suddenly frightened for my life. His little arms are wrapped tightly around me, squeezing. I’m squeezing right back. Fighting back tears because my six-year old daughter is next to me now. Continue reading

My Dad Had a Heart Attack and There Were No Goodbyes

My dad had a heart attack and there were no goodbyes. http://diaryofadomesticdiva.com

I sat, momentarily frozen, reading the words. Understanding, yet not comprehending. Heart hammering in my chest. Continue reading

From “That Day” to “This Day”: Grief finds a new forum

If you know me, I mean really know me, then you know I lost my mom. But you may not know, or remember, that it’s been fifteen years. Or that today, November 1st, is the day she passed away. So, now you know. I can’t say that November 1st is… Continue reading

Remembering my Mom, November 1st and Always

With so many people in this world suffering devastation now, today, whether at the hands of mother nature or fate or circumstances out of their control, it hardly seems fair to dwell on a loss I suffered 14 years ago. Let alone write about it, as though that loss gives… Continue reading